Self-treating Scoliosis: Week 1

It’s been a while since I abandoned my last attempt to treat my posture. This time I did a bit more research and I have a better game plan.

Here’s my starting point. Not terrible but I am getting older and things are starting to hurt again.

Some of the things I plan to work on my asymmetry include exercises and treatments inspired by the Schroth Method.


I was also considering making a half bust corset based on traditional orthopaedic corsets as well as Antiseptic Fashion‘s half overbust half underbust.



The last thing I may or may not implement is shoe lifts to balance my leg length.


I am looking forward to improving my posture in the coming months using the above methods. I will do my best to share my progress.


The Struggle with My Face and Body

I have been been modelling since 2012.

That feels like ages ago.

I started with practically zero confidence.

At around 14 years old, I went to an online forum for models and was told that I was too short to be a model.

At 16 years old, I got my septum pierced a long while after discovering Suicide Girls during their guest appearance on CSI:NY.

At nearly 18 years old, I got my first tattoo, it was the First Fig by Edna St Vincent Millay because Roald Dahl used it as his life motto.

I spent most of my teenagehood admiring Marilyn Monroe and spent a lot time blogging about how I wanted to be exactly like her; all in her 5’5″, D-cup, blonde glory.

I wanted to bleach my hair and curl it.

I wanted breast implants.

I wanted leg lengthening surgery.

I wanted to waist train.

Frankly, I wanted to be white passing at the time as well.

Even after discovering that alternative models did not necessarily have to be above 5’5″ (the height standard in Asia) or have umpteen tattoos and piercings, when I finally had my photographs taken, my body image troubles had not ended there.

I am 5’2″ on a good day (I have mild scoliosis) with a 32-28-37 body. That doesn’t seem too bad to the layman but I appear like an oompa-loompa to agencies in Asia. Even if I was 5’5″, my bust-waist-hip ratio is considered too fat.

While Western modelling agencies require at least a 5’9″ tall and 34-24-34 body, Asian ones want at least a 5’5″ tall and an even smaller body at 32-22-32.

We have talked about my body, now let’s get to my face. I have a very high forehead, a large nose from my paternal grandfather, small lips, plump jowls and very thin 1A hair, both from mum. Western ideals for female faces include a smaller forehead, hooded eyes with a clear crease, a button nose, high cheekbones, very plump lips and dense hair with the help of extensions or a lace front wig. Asian ideals for female faces also want smaller foreheads then diverge in the sense that the lips are plump but smaller and rounder, noses are small and sharp, jaws are sharp with a slim jaw and their hair has wavy extensions attached.

I have always identified as a woman and I was assigned female at birth but I still have to deal with a lot of misgendering and questions. It took me a while to realize that makeup and hair can only do so much. 
Additionally, due to my ruler figure and shallow bust, I feel like a crossdresser, with or without a cinched waist and breast fillets.
For a while, I say that I am gender non-conforming, after admiring the work of gender capitalist and high fashion model, Rain Dove. Now here comes the other issue, I do not look masculine enough to pass as male either. Once again, I try packing, heel lifts, shoulder pads and I look more like a young effeminate boy.

I came to the realization that my relationship with gender, femininity and masculinity is very cold? I feel like the real me is neither of these things. I understand that presentation and internal feelings are different. My status is now questioning.

To conclude my first blog post in a long time, people don’t like me because I don’t fit the mold. At the same time, I don’t feel like I can fit said molds. One of these days I might figure this out.

Just don’t assume I am very confident in myself, in reality, I am always at war with my own thoughts and looks.

Character Popularity Survey

Please take this survey to help me figure out who to cosplay next!
Below are links to each character references in case you need them.
Rei Ayanami – Evangelion
Homura – Puella Magica
Rin Hoshizora – Love Live
Haruhi Suzumiya – Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya
Envy – Fullmetal Alchemist
Maka Albarn – Soul Eater
Konata Izumi – Lucky Star
Mumei – Kabaneri of the Iron Fortress
Nagisa Shiota – Assassination Classroom
Ebisu Kofuku – Noragami
Chiyo Sakura – Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun
Ranka Lee – Macross Frontier
Taiga Aisaka – Toradora
Boba Fett – Star Wars
Furiosa – Mad Max
Amber – Sucker Punch
Lilah – Jonah Hex
Katana – Suicide Squad
Rey – Star Wars
Katniss Everdeen – Hunger Games
Silk Spectre – Watchmen
Erin Gilbert – Ghostbusters
Black Widow – Captain America: Civil War
Wonder Woman – Batman v Superman
Princess Peach – Mario
Pikachu – Pokemon

Soul Survivor – Fallout 4


Supergirl – Ame-Comi
Wonder Woman – Ame-Comi
Spidergirl – Marvel
Arachne – Marvel

Catwoman – Batman 1960s
Sabine Wren – Star Wars
Abby – NCIS

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Thank you for writing this. I am thankful to say that I have never been raped. However, having experienced emotional abuse in a relationship and then being molested on a different date after, sometimes I get told “see I told you not to date that guy” or “why the heck are you in a stranger’s house” so on and so forth.

Society has brought up people to blame the victim, before anything else. This is rape culture, even if rape never happened.

Rape victims don’t always have the opportunity to “go straight to the police”. Some may be shaken by the incident, held captive, drugged, etc hell, there are reports of rapists who even use condoms, so no DNA is left, maybe cuts, bruises at most, though we know in real life (not like on TV) bruising doesn’t always appear.

There needs to be a change in laws all over the world and the mindset of our selfish culture of people.

Roswell Ivory

After Paris, I didn’t expect to be posting another serious blog so soon, but I can’t not talk about the recent shock so many of us have had regarding Stoya and James Deen.
For those not in the know; on Saturday, porn star and writer Stoya accused her ex-boyfriend and fellow porn star James Deen of rape in this Twitter status:
“James Deen held me down and fucked me while I said no, stop, used my safeword. I just can’t nod and smile when people bring him up anymore.”
There’s a lot I want to cover here but firstly, her profession is irrelevant to this matter. No means no- end of story. Moving on…

Stoya’s twitter status has sparked a wave of solidarity and support from people all over the world- including James Deen’s ex Joanna Angel and two other porn stars who claim he assaulted them too.

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Point-and-Creep: ‘Fran Bow’ Chapter 2 Is Frightfully Suspenseful


Fran Bow

[Part 1] [Part 2]

[Trigger warning: Body horror, death, and murder. The entire game involves gory hallucinations. Or are they?]

The second part of Fran Bow Chapter 2 got me thinking even more about the parallels between universes. When Fran wakes up lying down in a basket wearing a bonnet, she finds herself in an unknown kitchen with a note from a certain Clara and Mia. My Monkey Island instincts got me picking up on any and every clickable item in each room of the house, though I somehow managed to miss one or two items again.

The house was decorated with photos and decorative portraits, and it appeared that there were a pair of conjoined twins living there. Upon investigation, they weren’t always conjoined. The house seemed quite lovely and pleasant at first glance with pink and blue floral wallpaper, colorful desserts on display … but that’s where…

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