Thank you for writing this. I am thankful to say that I have never been raped. However, having experienced emotional abuse in a relationship and then being molested on a different date after, sometimes I get told “see I told you not to date that guy” or “why the heck are you in a stranger’s house” so on and so forth.

Society has brought up people to blame the victim, before anything else. This is rape culture, even if rape never happened.

Rape victims don’t always have the opportunity to “go straight to the police”. Some may be shaken by the incident, held captive, drugged, etc hell, there are reports of rapists who even use condoms, so no DNA is left, maybe cuts, bruises at most, though we know in real life (not like on TV) bruising doesn’t always appear.

There needs to be a change in laws all over the world and the mindset of our selfish culture of people.

Roswell Ivory

After Paris, I didn’t expect to be posting another serious blog so soon, but I can’t not talk about the recent shock so many of us have had regarding Stoya and James Deen.
For those not in the know; on Saturday, porn star and writer Stoya accused her ex-boyfriend and fellow porn star James Deen of rape in this Twitter status:
“James Deen held me down and fucked me while I said no, stop, used my safeword. I just can’t nod and smile when people bring him up anymore.”
There’s a lot I want to cover here but firstly, her profession is irrelevant to this matter. No means no- end of story. Moving on…

Stoya’s twitter status has sparked a wave of solidarity and support from people all over the world- including James Deen’s ex Joanna Angel and two other porn stars who claim he assaulted them too.

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Point-and-Creep: ‘Fran Bow’ Chapter 2 Is Frightfully Suspenseful


Fran Bow

[Part 1] [Part 2]

[Trigger warning: Body horror, death, and murder. The entire game involves gory hallucinations. Or are they?]

The second part of Fran Bow Chapter 2 got me thinking even more about the parallels between universes. When Fran wakes up lying down in a basket wearing a bonnet, she finds herself in an unknown kitchen with a note from a certain Clara and Mia. My Monkey Island instincts got me picking up on any and every clickable item in each room of the house, though I somehow managed to miss one or two items again.

The house was decorated with photos and decorative portraits, and it appeared that there were a pair of conjoined twins living there. Upon investigation, they weren’t always conjoined. The house seemed quite lovely and pleasant at first glance with pink and blue floral wallpaper, colorful desserts on display … but that’s where…

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Point-and-Creep: ‘Fran Bow’ Is Delightfully Gory

My first article for FemHype!



[Trigger warning: Sexual abuse, cutting, suicidal tendencies, rape, and pedophilia. The entire game involves gory hallucinations. Or are they?]

I backed Fran Bow two years ago after seeing a few YouTubers tackle the Alpha Demo. It has been officially released a few days ago, and I am playing it to observe the game from a few angles, as both a feminist as well as someone with a mental illness. Additionally, some other matters may be brought up along the way, depending on what developer and artist Natalia Figueroa decides to throw at us through this quaint point-and-click adventure horror game.

Are you ready? Be warned: SPOILERS ahead!

Chapter 1 shows our protagonist being sent to a children’s asylum after witnessing the morbid murder of her parents. When she initially ran away from the gory scene of the crime with her cat, Mr. Midnight, only to collapse in a forest…

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Casual + Budget Vintage Figure Ideas

I know some of you can’t afford a proper corset or just want a few days off at a time like myself.

One way you could create a gentle nipped waist silhouette is by pairing longline bras and high waisted panties.

ASOS leopard print lingerie set.

ASOS leopard print lingerie set.

30B and UK10.

30B and UK10.

Pictured here is my ASOS leopard print longline bra and high waisted panty. The longline contains the muffin top from the panty.

I highly suggest looking for “high waisted knickers” and “high waisted panties” on places like ASOS and old Marks & Spencer stock on eBay UK.

You can also get those $0.99 ones off China shops but be warned that they’re usually high in polyester content so if you’re prone to yeast infections, they aren’t that great an idea, though you could always double up and wear a regular cotton panty underneath the cheap poly ones.

Pictured with a cinch clip

Pictured with a cinch clip

With an elastic belt

With an elastic belt

As you can tell, it isn’t super duper curvy but it’s way comfier than a rusty tubey knock-off or itchy faja.

If you like to sew, you can look up images of traditional shapewear knickers and girdles to create something form-fitting and comfy.

This particular undies isn’t that cinchy as it’s a gentle mesh fabric but I will try to obtain images of my other high waist panties in the future!

I weigh 20lbs (9kg) lighter, where to now?

As I am writing this, I weigh 52kg (114lbs). Well, tomorrow’s my monthly check-up at the hospital, maybe I’ll weigh less or more. I found out I hit 52kg (114lbs) just last month.

To be completely honest, I don’t think corsets were the main reason. However, corsetry was definitely part and parcel of the whole process. Like my dear friend Lucy says, the corsets are like running shoes. You can’t put them on and expect magic. You got to work with it.

As you all know, 61kg (134lbs) was my heaviest, back in May 2014, during the filming of Marco Polo.

Then there’s the suicide attempt and eventual change in meds, which was covered in my last post.

These days I get up around 9am and work on the last of my corset orders before I put Katastrophy Korsets on indefinite hiatus. I sleep around 10pm or 11pm, depending on whether I am enjoying a TV show with family.

I get 2-3 full meals a day and walk my dog at least once or twice a day. Occasionally, I take walks in the countryside to grab groceries.

I wouldn’t say I did a miracle program to get these numbers. Everything that led to this weight loss is a mixture of things.

I have the best friends in the world, Lowana, Lucy, Penny and Laysa are reminders of why I keep living.

The death of Christine, one year ago now, shook us and woke us all up.

Losing her was terrible, she was the mom of the group, whenever we needed advice, whenever we feel down, she used to smack us back to reality.

But after she left us, we had to turn to each other.

I won’t name names but some of us have saved each other from doing something rash.

Maybe it’s the feeling of near-death that changes things. Maybe it’s also actual death.

While not all of us have met each other in person, sometimes it feels like they’re physically there for you.

That’s what’s important.

I have also chosen to indefinitely retire from Facebook and Tumblr unless absolutely necessary. Everything there seems to be bringing me down.

Strangely enough, I was also away when the horrid news came, one year ago.

I am now lighter than I usually would be. Lighter than I originally intended to be.

I am virtually jobless, unqualified (without a diploma/degree) yet overqualified (no small job wants an English-speaking Chinese staff).

What do I do now?

I decided to pick up the 30-day Yoga Challenge as well as sell off a tonne of latexwear that no one wants me to model (though frankly, most of the bidders/buyers seem not to want to pay for their item).

I will start to focus on photographing and modelling more for GodsGirls and Cosplay Deviants, perhaps focus on rebranding Katastrophy Korsets as well.

That’s all I have planned right now. I will be job hunting still, hopefully something bites.

The difference is very slight. Also, shit lighting.

The difference is very slight. Also, shit lighting.

Waist training results: Before/After, 2012 to early 2015 (NSFW)

TRIGGER WARNING: May contain mentions of suicide and depression.

Now that I finally caught up with the last of my custom commissions and starting my RTW line in February, I decided it’s about time we have an update!

Let’s kick things off with waist training result photos, you can see them here on Lucy’s Corsetry blog.

Notice that the photos are about a couple years old. Well, let’s just say 2014 wasn’t the greatest year for me.

I had made the mistake of taking on too many commissions, all of which were bespoke (drafted from scratch, which is time consuming) and extremely low priced (my friend Amber of Lovely Rats gave me a good earful on why and how to price accordingly, thank heavens).

Then Marco Polo came around, I had forgotten my meds (for Bipolar Disorder) so I just bought Epilim, which was on my prescription and available in drugstores. I lacked my Seroquel still.

For some reason I went from around 58kg (sedentary lifestyle being a depressed shut-in) to 61kg, the heaviest I had ever been. I believe the irregular meals and constant snacking might have partially contributed to the weight gain. We were shooting for hours on end so we tend to miss the catering tent (which were only open for a few hours) and were constantly being fed by the PAs.

During my schooling days when I was tan and active in competitive tennis, I weighed 55kg. When I was a personal trainer, I weight anything around 48kg to 50kg.

On the 11th of December 2014, I attempted suicide and suffered memory loss, probably from stumbling about and hitting my head the day after the attempt while “high” on sleeping pills, according to my mum at least. I was then hospitalized on the 13th.

I would say that maybe, just maybe, that was a blessing in disguise. The doctor who treated me during my time there apparently was surprised at how long I had been on Epilim and has since prescribed Lithium Carbonate in place of it.

The only downside I can think of is the slight nausea (which is not often) and the fact I need constant blood tests due to its poisonous side effects.

Since the change of medication, I have dropped back down to 58kg and I no longer feel drowsy at night.

I promised photos, so here they are.

Photo taken in November 2014: Around 60kg, before my hospitalization. Photo by Mountain Beauties.

Photo taken in November 2014: Around 60kg, before my hospitalization. Photo by Mountain Beauties.

Photo taken in November 2014: Around 60kg, before my hospitalization. Photo by Mountain Beauties.

Photo taken in November 2014: Around 60kg, before my hospitalization. Photo by Mountain Beauties.


Photographed this month, weighing 58kg and feeling super!

Photographed this month, weighing 58kg and feeling super!

You know, I think 2015 will be great. 🙂

2014 in review

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

The concert hall at the Sydney Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 24,000 times in 2014. If it were a concert at Sydney Opera House, it would take about 9 sold-out performances for that many people to see it.

Click here to see the complete report.