I weigh 20lbs (9kg) lighter, where to now?

As I am writing this, I weigh 52kg (114lbs). Well, tomorrow’s my monthly check-up at the hospital, maybe I’ll weigh less or more. I found out I hit 52kg (114lbs) just last month.

To be completely honest, I don’t think corsets were the main reason. However, corsetry was definitely part and parcel of the whole process. Like my dear friend Lucy says, the corsets are like running shoes. You can’t put them on and expect magic. You got to work with it.

As you all know, 61kg (134lbs) was my heaviest, back in May 2014, during the filming of Marco Polo.

Then there’s the suicide attempt and eventual change in meds, which was covered in my last post.

These days I get up around 9am and work on the last of my corset orders before I put Katastrophy Korsets on indefinite hiatus. I sleep around 10pm or 11pm, depending on whether I am enjoying a TV show with family.

I get 2-3 full meals a day and walk my dog at least once or twice a day. Occasionally, I take walks in the countryside to grab groceries.

I wouldn’t say I did a miracle program to get these numbers. Everything that led to this weight loss is a mixture of things.

I have the best friends in the world, Lowana, Lucy, Penny and Laysa are reminders of why I keep living.

The death of Christine, one year ago now, shook us and woke us all up.

Losing her was terrible, she was the mom of the group, whenever we needed advice, whenever we feel down, she used to smack us back to reality.

But after she left us, we had to turn to each other.

I won’t name names but some of us have saved each other from doing something rash.

Maybe it’s the feeling of near-death that changes things. Maybe it’s also actual death.

While not all of us have met each other in person, sometimes it feels like they’re physically there for you.

That’s what’s important.

I have also chosen to indefinitely retire from Facebook and Tumblr unless absolutely necessary. Everything there seems to be bringing me down.

Strangely enough, I was also away when the horrid news came, one year ago.

I am now lighter than I usually would be. Lighter than I originally intended to be.

I am virtually jobless, unqualified (without a diploma/degree) yet overqualified (no small job wants an English-speaking Chinese staff).

What do I do now?

I decided to pick up the 30-day Yoga Challenge as well as sell off a tonne of latexwear that no one wants me to model (though frankly, most of the bidders/buyers seem not to want to pay for their item).

I will start to focus on photographing and modelling more for GodsGirls and Cosplay Deviants, perhaps focus on rebranding Katastrophy Korsets as well.

That’s all I have planned right now. I will be job hunting still, hopefully something bites.

The difference is very slight. Also, shit lighting.

The difference is very slight. Also, shit lighting.

Waist training results: Before/After, 2012 to early 2015 (NSFW)

TRIGGER WARNING: May contain mentions of suicide and depression.

Now that I finally caught up with the last of my custom commissions and starting my RTW line in February, I decided it’s about time we have an update!

Let’s kick things off with waist training result photos, you can see them here on Lucy’s Corsetry blog.

Notice that the photos are about a couple years old. Well, let’s just say 2014 wasn’t the greatest year for me.

I had made the mistake of taking on too many commissions, all of which were bespoke (drafted from scratch, which is time consuming) and extremely low priced (my friend Amber of Lovely Rats gave me a good earful on why and how to price accordingly, thank heavens).

Then Marco Polo came around, I had forgotten my meds (for Bipolar Disorder) so I just bought Epilim, which was on my prescription and available in drugstores. I lacked my Seroquel still.

For some reason I went from around 58kg (sedentary lifestyle being a depressed shut-in) to 61kg, the heaviest I had ever been. I believe the irregular meals and constant snacking might have partially contributed to the weight gain. We were shooting for hours on end so we tend to miss the catering tent (which were only open for a few hours) and were constantly being fed by the PAs.

During my schooling days when I was tan and active in competitive tennis, I weighed 55kg. When I was a personal trainer, I weight anything around 48kg to 50kg.

On the 11th of December 2014, I attempted suicide and suffered memory loss, probably from stumbling about and hitting my head the day after the attempt while “high” on sleeping pills, according to my mum at least. I was then hospitalized on the 13th.

I would say that maybe, just maybe, that was a blessing in disguise. The doctor who treated me during my time there apparently was surprised at how long I had been on Epilim and has since prescribed Lithium Carbonate in place of it.

The only downside I can think of is the slight nausea (which is not often) and the fact I need constant blood tests due to its poisonous side effects.

Since the change of medication, I have dropped back down to 58kg and I no longer feel drowsy at night.

I promised photos, so here they are.

Photo taken in November 2014: Around 60kg, before my hospitalization. Photo by Mountain Beauties.

Photo taken in November 2014: Around 60kg, before my hospitalization. Photo by Mountain Beauties.

Photo taken in November 2014: Around 60kg, before my hospitalization. Photo by Mountain Beauties.

Photo taken in November 2014: Around 60kg, before my hospitalization. Photo by Mountain Beauties.

 

Photographed this month, weighing 58kg and feeling super!

Photographed this month, weighing 58kg and feeling super!

You know, I think 2015 will be great. 🙂

Last Post for 2013! New Beginnings!

Ah, just two days away from my 22nd birthday! …as well as the New Year.

My New Year’s resolution is to be much thriftier and save up 6 to 9 months worth of living expenses in a fixed deposit (so my grubby hands won’t spend it!).

That means I’m limiting my purchases to the following:

  • Food & Travel (especially for shoots)
  • Cosplay costumes (which will be reimbursed by Cosplay Deviants)
  • Lingerie for daily wear and shoots (my true size is 30A, so I require a few sets that I can wear comfortably)
  • Corsetmaking materials in bulk e.g rolls of steels, boxes of grommets, several yards of coutil

In other, less stressful news, I received a lovely ribbon corset in gold silk dupioni with spot broche binding from JemCorsets!

The lining is lovely too!

I managed to season it stealthily under a pretty vintage dress…

It gives me a soft, slender silhouette, instead of an “extreme” one.

I haven’t been training for over a week now due to my trip.

 

Comic Fiesta ftw.

So here’s myself training again in the Josephine… new camera (Canon 40D) so forgive the wonkiness.

My tripod is too crappy to support this camera’s weight!

I think I need to stick to the good ole nasty compact camera for these......

I think I need to stick to the good ole nasty compact camera for these……

Oh and in case you don’t follow my Tumblr, check out these new photosets!

Photography: Dream.Photographie by Dave&Belle MUA: KathTea Katastrophy Accessories: Black Filigree Couture Corset: Sparklewren Panty: LoLeviLa Lingerie

Photography: Dream.Photographie by Dave&Belle
MUA: KathTea Katastrophy
Accessories: Black Filigree Couture
Corset: Sparklewren
Panty: LoLeviLa Lingerie

More here! http://kathtea.tumblr.com/post/70347640582/photography-dream-photographie-by-dave-belle

and

 Photoset December 24, 2013 91 notes MUA: KathTea Katastrophy Photography: Dream.PHOTOGRAPHIE by Dave&Belle Corset: C&S Constructions


MUA: KathTea Katastrophy
Photography: Dream.PHOTOGRAPHIE by Dave&Belle
Corset: C&S Constructions

http://kathtea.tumblr.com/post/70998577354/model-mua-kathtea-katastrophy-photography

Day 7 & Day 8: GODDAMNIT I’M BUSY

Sorry for the lack of updates.

I’ve been trying to complete my client’s corset before I leave for my trip to Singapore because from the 13th onwards, I am going to be ridiculously busy.

13th -15th I’ll be modelling in Singapore.
17th – 24th I’ll be in Kuala Lumpur for a convention.
28th is the grandfather’s 100th birthday dinner and my cousin’s baby’s Minnie Mouse themed birthday party.
1st of January will be my 22nd birthday party and my parents want to spend some quality time with me at our favourite Italian gourmet restaurant.

I revived the blog thinking I would have time to update this daily.

But in reality, that’s too time-consuming for me.

I won’t be abandoning the blog but instead of daily updates, I’ll be making this every other day or weekly (when I am away).

I do have some progress pictures on my PC. I managed to get extremely tiny squished waists, which makes me happy 🙂

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Click the image for a clearer view!
I can manage a squished waist of 25″ and even 24″ with just a measuring tape!

Day 6: How uneventful

Not much anecdotes to share for today really.

After all I woke up at 3pm (like a champ, not!) while corseted in my Josephine overnight, which means definitely way past 12 hours of waist training.

I had my “breakfast” (which was leftover cake from last night, hey, don’t judge me, my sis read that it’s okay to have something sweet to start off the day to curb cravings later on) and then helped my dad flavour (and kind of “fix”) a stew he had cooked up. I think he attempted to wake me up at around 1pm but I must have fallen back to sleep.

Fun fact: My family uses my palate to flavour things they cook up, apparently I know how to make things taste better. 😛

I had my Josephine on for most of whatever was left of the day and took it off later in the evening.

Most of my day consisted of getting my client’s corset done.

Curves! Hipspring! I am a happy camper 😄

Notice I didn’t put up a picture of myself in the Josephine. I feel that there’s going to be little progress in the images since I have it closed or nearly closed most of the time now.

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I’ve put this on from 11pm to 12am with a wider gap since I didn’t want it to turn crooked.

I’m going to being changing into the Josephine again right after this.

That’s all for Day 6!